I wasnt looking for this-for the trouble in your eyes.
I'm sorry if i killed a couple of butterflies...
I love you and thats all there is to it.
I cant tell you how much, i just cannot do it.
To me, your perfection and an angel at heart
Its killing me softly, the time were apart.
My passion is strong and my head is exploding
The trigger went off before it was loading...
Maybe it was me, maybe it was you
but whoever it was, it fucked up for true.
i hated the words but mostly the feeling.
my heart was pounding but i held back the tearing
It was stupid and foolish, i cant even tell you why
but its been pacing my mind, just walking by.
I dont know what happened, i dont know what to say
but i need to with you at the end of the day...
i feel that its there, the tension of the forenight
and im a survivor from our first but not last fight...
Friday, January 1, 2010
Sitting here, on the little cousins couch watching Beatles rockband- just thinking. Thats why im here atm. I dont remember much about last night, or this morning really. All i really remember is "chasing after a giant cat" in the streets of Vaudreuil at 5 AM. We didnt sleep really, and if we did it was well after 7 o'clock in the morning. Felt kind of dizzy this morning, with the daze of the new year. For me, it certainly does feel like a new begining, well continuation. I want to proceed with this year just like the last, only better. I want to take what i learn and it it to use in any and every opportunity. I got a man, a great one. Who i want to be with this this year... as strong as ever. My grades are exceeding, and i plan on maintaining that high. My friends are always there... and I only hope for them to stay. I have a giving and humble family which i am very grateful for. I have a life that is perfect in everyway. A life itself is good enough right?
New Years Resolution: Continue what I'm doing. Continue WHO i'm doing lol. Continue to be positive. Continue to never settle for good, go for the great.
Happy New Year to All!
Thursday, December 31, 2009
With just 4 hours left of 2009 i start to reflect on this past year. I must say im fucking proud. A lot of things happened this year, but mostly strong and independent moments... This year i have not cried for a guy and i dont regret anything. I went to parties that were unforgettable, ive spent time with my girls that build on the memories and i've experienced many relationships. I learned from everyone, taking the advice towards my futur. 2009 was that year for me, it was an amazing year. It taught me how to control things, how to stay focused and how to get over the little things. I altered myself, i changed my mind set and therefore changed myself. With this, i went on to winning a banner. I went on to finish with a 91% average and winning a scholarship and at the moment, am in the midst of an incredible relationship. I loved the year thats past. so many memories, great music/movies... im most proud of my accomplishments and my attitude. I've risen above everything that happened. I brought bitch to the table and although people have turned away or may not like it, its what got me here. strong and independent. and with the new attitude ive adapted, ive landed me a helluva team, a boominggg group of girls, a progressing body and a helllllllllll of a man. So cheers! 20-10 willl be EXCEPTIONNEL BABY!
here are some pics of the year 09!
here are some pics of the year 09!
Tesoro, dimme que tu sia con me- per sempre. non posso vivere senza tu qui, dal vostro de mi lato. Perche e questo tanto difficile? essendo via di te? mi amor, mio pazzo di te- ti penso sempre. no posso tu dire come tanto ti amo... tu sei la mia stella bello, mi ereo e una parte de mi anima. dovunque que mi vada, tu es per sempre dentro mi pensieri. qualunque cosa mi amor, prometta que tu mai dimenticarmi... tu sia una grande stella, la stella que mi sempre ha saputo tu erano. Ma.. no dimenticarmi amor... ama solo di te, sei tutto que mi bisogno. Mio avere di te, tu amando. tu sei la motivo de mi sorriso e de mio rotture. Capire que ti amo piu di quelle posso dire ... per voi, mi atteza pazientamente, per che qualunque questo tu sei, tu sia sempre ritorno a mi...